Less. Day 10.

 
less[ les ]
adverb
1. to a smaller extent, amount, or degree: less exact.
2. most certainly not (often preceded by much or still): He could barely pay for his own lodging, much less for that of his friend.
3. in any way different; other: He is nothing less than a thief.
 
adjective
1. smaller in size, amount, degree, etc.; not so large, great, or much: less money; less speed.
2. lower in consideration, rank, or importance: no less a person than the manager.
3. fewer: less than a dozen.
noun
1. a smaller amount or quantity: Hundreds of soldiers arrived, but less of them remained.
2. something inferior or not as important: He was tortured for less.
preposition
1. minus; without: a year less two days; six dollars less tax.
Idioms
1. less than.by far short of being; not in the least; hardly at all: The job is less than perfect.
-less
unknown
1. an adjective suffix meaning “without” ( childless; peerless ), and in adjectives derived from verbs, indicating failure or inability to perform or be performed ( resistless; tireless ).
little[ lit-l ]
adjective
1. small in size; not big; not large; tiny: a little desk in the corner of the room.
2. short in duration; not extensive; short; brief: a little while.
3. small in number: a little group of scientists.
4. small in amount or degree; not much: little hope.
5. of a certain amount; appreciable (usually preceded by a): We’re having a little difficulty.
6. being such on a small scale: little farmers.
7. younger or youngest: He’s my little brother.
8. not strong, forceful, or loud; weak: a little voice.
9. small in consideration, importance, position, affluence, etc.: little discomforts; tax reductions to help the little fellow.
10. mean, narrow, or illiberal: a little mind.
11. endearingly small or considered as such: Bless your little heart!
12. amusingly small or so considered: a funny little way of laughing.
13. contemptibly small, petty, mean, etc., or so considered: filthy little political tricks.
adverb
1. not at all (used before a verb): He little knows what awaits him.
2. in only a small amount or degree; not much; slightly: a little-known work of art; little better than a previous effort.
3. seldom; rarely; infrequently: We see each other very little.
noun
1. a small amount, quantity, or degree: They did little to make him comfortable. If you want some ice cream, there’s a little in the refrigerator.
2. a short distance: It’s down the road a little.
3. a short time: Stay here for a little.
Idioms
1. in little.on a small scale; in miniature: a replica in little of Independence Hall.
2. little by little.by small degrees; gradually: The water level rose little by little.
3. to understand or interpret only slightly: Scholars made little of the newly discovered text.
4. not a little.to a great extent; very much; considerably: It tired me not a little to stand for three hours.
5. think little of.to treat casually; regard as trivial: They think little of driving 50 miles to see a movie.

 

I had a realization today, people don’t actually need me that much. I don’t need to stress out about my school work so much, it’s kinda preventing me from actually getting it done. That’s plants will be okay for a day, hell, so will the cat. No ones actually reading this fucker anyhow, and I have a restorative yoga class to rock. Peace out. 

Gentle. Day 9.

Concussed myself. Couldn’t really write. 

Also, my word was gentle. 

gentle[ jen-tl ]
adjective
1. kindly; amiable: a gentle manner.
2. not severe, rough, or violent; mild: a gentle wind; a gentle tap on the shoulder.
3. moderate: gentle heat.
4. gradual: a gentle slope.
5. of good birth or family; wellborn.
6. characteristic of good birth; honorable; respectable: a gentle upbringing.
7. easily handled or managed; tractable: a gentle animal.
8. soft or low: a gentle sound.
9. polite; refined: Consider, gentle reader, my terrible predicament at this juncture.
10. entitled to a coat of arms; armigerous.
11. noble; chivalrous: a gentle knight.
verb (used with object)
1. to tame; render tractable.
2. to mollify; calm; pacify.
3. to make gentle.
4. to stroke; soothe by petting.
5. to ennoble; dignify.

 

Release. Day 8.

re-lease[ ree-lees ]
verb (used with object)
1. to lease again.
2. to make over (land, property, etc.), as to another.
noun
1. a contract for re-leasing land or property.
2. the land or property re-leased.
release[ ri-lees ]
verb (used with object)
1. to free from confinement, bondage, obligation, pain, etc.; let go: to release a prisoner; to release someone from a debt.
2. to free from anything that restrains, fastens, etc.: to release a catapult.
3. to allow to be known, issued, done, or exhibited: to release an article for publication.
4. to give up, relinquish, or surrender (a right, claim, etc.).
noun
1. a freeing or releasing from confinement, obligation, pain, emotional strain, etc.
2. liberation from anything that restrains or fastens.
3. some device or agency for effecting such liberation.
4. a grant of permission, as to publish, use, or sell something.
5. the releasing of something for publication, performance, use, exhibition, or sale.
6. the film, book, record, etc., that is released.
7. press release
8. a document embodying such a surrender.
9. a remission, as of a debt, tax, or tribute.
10. the point in the stroke of an engine at which the exhaust port or valve is opened.
11. (in jazz or popular music) a bridge.
 
 
I’m not sure if I’m a fan of this definition, but I love the word.
 
“I am willing to release the need for…”
Insert your shit pickle! 
Think about it, if you didn’t have some kind of need for it, whether on a metaphysical, mental, spiritual, or physical level, your condition, would not exist. Accept this, and it becomes so empowering, you are in control. 
 
A lovely lady, named Kris Care once said, “your issues are in your tissues!”  
 
For me, there’s nothing like running out a bad day, it gets me into and outta my head, my endorphins kick in, and I feel strong, and empoweringly  vulnerable. My stresses, and sorrows come out with my sweat, making room for peace and happiness in my body! Oh yeah!
 
It came up in my “release” research, that in order to release anything, I had to trust.  (Not so) Coincidentally my word yesterday was trust. And though I knew it before, it’s never hit me harder that I am a complete pistanthrobiac (trust-a-phobiac) or how significant this is. In order to release, I have to trust that the universe will supply, and that everything is, and always will be, okay.
 
Though forgiveness and release are different things, their really tied up in each others business. Kinda feeling like “forgiveness” might be sent to me tomorrow. The distinction is that release is just giving up the emotional attachment, to old memories. 
 
Things I am Willing to Let go Of: a List
by Charmaine Nordtvedt
 
-physical clutter
-thoughts of unworthiness(these lead to procrastination, ick!) 
-should
-spiritual abuse, and spiritually abusive thoughts
-relationships that no longer serve me
-old hurts
-the past
-regret
-guilt
-fear
-pain
-ideals
-worry
-embarrassment 
-lashing out at others
-any person, thought, attachment, object, standard, habit, or practice, that no longer serves me. 
 
What’s your list???
 
Now for some soul medicine from Luis Hay, that defiantly isn’t going to need a spoon full of sugar:
“I am willing to let go. I release. I let go. I release all tension. I release all fear. I release all anger. I release all guilt. I release all sadness. I let go of all old limitations. I let go, and I am at peace. 
I am at peace with myself. I am at peace with the process of life. I am safe. ”