Safe. Day 29.

safe[ seyf ]LINK0img
adjective saf·er, saf·est.
1. secure from liability to harm, injury, danger, or risk: a safe place.
2. free from hurt, injury, danger, or risk: to arrive safe and sound.
3. involving little or no risk of mishap, error, etc.: a safe estimate.
4. dependable or trustworthy: a safe guide.
5. careful to avoid danger or controversy: a safe player; a safe play.
6. denied the chance to do harm; in secure custody: a criminal safe in jail.
7. making it possible to reach a base: a safe slide.
1. in a safe manner; safely: Learn how to drive safe.
1. a steel or iron box or repository for money, jewels, papers, etc.
2. any receptacle or structure for the storage or preservation of articles: a meat safe.
4. a condom.
1. play it

Accept. Day 26.

accept (əkˈsɛpt)

— vb (sometimes foll by of )


to take or receive (something offered)


to give an affirmative reply to: to accept an invitation


to take on the responsibilities, duties, etc, of: he accepted office


to tolerate or accommodate oneself to


to consider as true or believe in (a philosophy, theory, etc): I cannot accept your argument


( may take a clause as object ) to be willing to grant or believe: you must accept that he lied


to receive with approval or admit, as into a community, group, etc


commerce to agree to pay (a bill, draft, shipping document, etc), esp by signing


to receive as adequate, satisfactory, or valid


to receive, take, or hold (something applied, inserted, etc)


archaic to take or receive an offer, invitation, etc

Because its all happeming really fast, and yeah, its scarey, but i have too. More importanly: I want too.

Break The Rules. It’s a day.

Break the rules.

drive without shoes on.

be shameless.

care, even though its weird.

Wear hair bows.

accept that life isn’t organized.

Give up on your blog for a bit, come back to it. Just post pictures, or text, or whatever you want.

Listen to your music too loud.

Love yourself.

Embrace messy.

‘Cuz I know I am.

See. Day 16.

see[ see ]
verb (used with object)
1. to perceive with the eyes; look at.
2. to view; visit or attend as a spectator: to see a play.
3. to perceive by means of computer vision.
4. to scan or view, especially by electronic means: The satellite can see the entire southern half of the country.
5. to perceive (things) mentally; discern; understand: to see the point of an argument.
6. to construct a mental image of; visualize: He still saw his father as he was 25 years ago.
7. to accept or imagine or suppose as acceptable: I can’t see him as president.
8. to be cognizant of; recognize: to see the good in others; to see where the mistake is.
9. to foresee: He could see war ahead.
10. to ascertain, learn, or find out: See who is at the door.
11. to have knowledge or experience of: to see service in the foreign corps.
12. to make sure: See that the work is done.
13. to meet and converse with: Are you seeing her at lunch today?
14. to receive as a visitor: The ambassador finally saw him.
15. to visit: He’s gone to see his aunt.
16. to court, keep company with, or date frequently: They’ve been seeing each other for a long time.
17. to provide aid or assistance to; take care of: He’s seeing his brother through college.
18. to attend or escort: to see someone home.
19. to match (a bet) or match the bet of (a bettor) by staking an equal sum; call: I’ll see your five and raise you five more.
20. to prefer (someone or something) to be as indicated (usually used as a mild oath): I’ll see you in hell before I sell you this house. He’ll see the business fail before he admits he’s wrong.
21. to read or read about: I saw it in the newspaper.
verb (used without object)
1. to have the power of sight
2. to be capable of perceiving by means of computer vision.
3. to understand intellectually or spiritually; have insight: Philosophy teaches us to see.
4. to give attention or care: See, there it goes.
5. to find out; make inquiry: Go and see for yourself.
6. to consider; think; deliberate: Let me see, how does that song go?
7. to look about; observe: They heard the noise and came out to see.
Verb phrases
1. to turn one’s attention to; take care of: He said he would see about getting the license plates.
2. to attend to; take care of: Will you please see after my plants while I’m away?
3. to take leave of someone setting out on a journey; accompany to the place of departure: I went to the airport to see them off.
4. to remain with (a task, project, etc.) until its completion: We decided to see it out, even if it meant another year.
5. to stay with to the end or until completion; persevere: to see a difficult situation through.
6. to take care of; be responsible for: I’ll see to the theater tickets.
see[ see ]
noun Ecclesiastical
1. the seat, center of authority, office, or jurisdiction of a bishop.

“Your looking Charmaine, but our not seeing.” 

My driving instructor used to say to me, I can hear his strange multicultural accent now…
Today was a weird day, of looking at the hard parts of life id rather shy away from. But, some things must been seen. 

Burn. Day 15.


 burn[ burn ]
verb (used without object)
1. to undergo rapid combustion or consume fuel in such a way as to give off heat, gases, and, usually, light; be on fire: The fire burned in the grate.
2. (of a fireplace, furnace, etc.) to contain a fire.
3. to feel heat or a physiologically similar sensation; feel pain from or as if from a fire: The wound burned and throbbed.
4. to give off light or to glow brightly: The lights in the house burned all night.
5. to give off heat or be hot: The pavement burned in the noon sun.
6. to produce pain or a stinging sensation similar to that of fire; cause to smart: The whiskey burned in his throat.
7. to be extremely close to finding a concealed object or guessing an answer.
8. to feel extreme anger: When she said I was rude, I really burned.
9. to feel strong emotion or passion: He burned with desire.
10. to undergo fission or fusion.
11. to become charred or overcooked by heat: The steak burned around the edges.
12. to receive a sunburn: She burns easily and has to stay in the shade.
13. to be damned: You may burn for that sin.
14. to die in an electric chair: The murderer was sentenced to burn.
15. to be engraved by or as if by burning: His words burned into her heart.
verb (used with object)
1. to cause to undergo combustion or be consumed partly or wholly by fire.
2. to use as fuel or as a source of light: He burned coal to heat the house.
3. to cause to feel the sensation of heat.
4. to overcook or char: I almost burned the roast.
5. to sunburn
6. to injure, endanger, or damage with or as if with fire: Look out, you’ll burn yourself!
7. to execute by burning: The heretic was burned at the stake.
8. to subject to fire or treat with heat as a process of manufacturing.
9. to produce with or as if with fire: She burned a hole in her dress.
10. to cause sharp pain or a stinging sensation: The iodine burned his cut.
11. to consume rapidly, especially to squander: He burned energy as if he never heard of resting.
12. to suffer losses or be disillusioned in business or social relationships: She was burned by that phony stock deal.
13. to cheat or rob.
14. to copy or write data to (an optical disk): She burned a CD of their favorite songs.
15. to cause to undergo combustion; oxidize.
16. to damage through excessive friction, as in grinding or machining; scorch.
17. to oxidize (a steel ingot), as with a flame.
18. to scald (a wine, especially sherry) in an iron container over a fire.
19. to put (a played or rejected card) face up at the bottom of the pack.
20. to disclose the identity of (an undercover agent, law officer, etc.): to burn a narcotics detective.
1. a burned place or area: a burn where fire had ripped through the forest.
2. an injury usually caused by heat but also by abnormal cold, chemicals, poison gas, electricity, or lightning, and characterized by a painful reddening and swelling of the epidermis (first-degree burn) damage extending into the dermis, usually with blistering (second-degree burn) or destruction of the epidermis and dermis extending into the deeper tissue with loss of pain receptors (third-degree burn)
3. slow burn
4. the process or an instance of burning or baking, as in brickmaking.
5. a forest or brush fire.
6. the firing of a rocket engine.
7. a burning sensation felt in the muscles during intense exercise (usually preceded by the): Repeat the sit-ups till you feel the burn in your lower abs.
8. a swindle.
Verb phrases
1. to burn to the ground: That barn was struck by lightning and burned down.
2. (in printing) to expose (one part of an image) to more light by masking the other parts in order to darken and give greater detail to the unmasked area.
3. (of morning mist) to be dissipated by the warmth of the rising sun.
4. to weld lead with lead.
5. to incite to anger: That attitude burns me up.
6. to wear out; exhaust; be worn out; become exhausted.
7. to become angry: He burns up at the mention of her name.
1. burn one’s bridges (behind one).bridge
2. burn oneself exhaust one’s energy, ideas, etc., through overwork or intemperance: They feared that he would burn himself out or break down.
3. burn the midnight work, study,etc., until late at night: to burn the midnight oil before final exams.
4. burn the/one’s candle at both be excessively active or immoderate, as by leading an active social life by night and a busy work life by day: You can’t burn the candle at both ends and hold onto a job.
I would have collapsed in (yet another) heap today if it weren’t for this word.
I consider myself a very compassionate person, I think about people’s feelings a lot, and try to do right by everyone, try to understand their position. Sometimes though, I really just have to do what’s best for me, even if it’s going to hurt someone else. 
Basically, the tragedies in my life have me feeling (and sorta smelling) incensed. 
I’m not repressing this feeling anymore, I’m using it. Today was the first day in a long time I felt something incredibly profound: absolution. 
I’m going to be okay.
Fire is a terribly beautiful thing, flickering and dancing, most of all purifying. 
So today, I am happy to burn, bright and bold, because I can’t think of a better way to purify my soul. 




Re. I lost count.

I think I made it ten days? Eleven? Who knows. I’m not gunna go look, that would just make me hate myself a bit. I really wanted to write, every day, most wouldn’t judge me if they knew why I went missing completely, the past few days, lets just leave it at there has been some horrible family shit going on. That’s besides the point, I faltered, I failed, but I haven’t given up.


I genuinely considered faking blog entries from previous days, and blaming the resulting weirdness on wordpress’ shittyness, and then when the smallness of that made me shrink, I considered admitting defeat, and taking down this whole thing, in the name of grief. Know what though? I really didn’t want to do either of those things.

Even if I make mistakes, I choose to see myself as perfectly flawed. So here I am baring my authenticity, I feel vulnerable, scared, shaken, lost, sick, disgusted, worthless, and bleak. The thing is, it’ll all be okay. I am in control of my own life, and happiness, though I can not control circumstance, nor do I want too, because oh, what a wonderful ride it is.



So, I stumbled, I didn’t write, but I want too, so now I’m going too.


Re. Day 14.




[er] Show IPA

contraction of are: They’re leaving.

Usage note



[rey] Show IPA

noun Egyptian Religion .




Symbol, Chemistry .



a prefix, occurring originally in loanwords from Latin, used with the meaning “again” or “again and again” to indicate repetition, or with the meaning “back” or “backward” to indicate withdrawal or backward motion: regenerate; refurbish; retype; retrace; revert.

Also, red-.


Middle English < Latin re-, red-



Also, re.

(Dictionaries have freaking everything!)

Renew. Rebirth. Restate.


I think its such a powerful little prefix.

Don’t you?